Letting Go The One That Got Away

Letting go is easy, moving on is a process.
You loved, you got hurt, you patched up and healed.
It's just a cycle.

The worst pain was my love never got answered.
I was left hanging.
I was left in desperation.
I was left with trust issues.
I was left with my worst ego.

Hell, I died a little when I decided to let go.
Let go of the things that I cherished the most...let go of you.
Never stopped trying, and always tried to be optimistic that one day you would answer..
That you would tell me that you love me too.

That day, it never came.
Still, I love you. And I will miss you, no matter where you are.
As always, you be good, be safe, eat well and rest well, my dear.

Why You Gave A Shit

You know why you gave a shit even though you know you shouldn't.

Sometimes it's never about "giving one 20 dollars when all you have is only 20 dollars"

Some people always want that 200 dollars that you can never afford to give.

Some people always crave for more, they are just superficial af.

We cannot blame them, life shaped them this way. I shit you not.

In fact, life shaped all of us this way.

Or else we wouldn't have given a shit to those who don't even care, no?

Hello There

Damn, it's been a while, isn't it?

The last post was 2 years ago. I wonder if people still write blog entries.

These 2 years had been a tough one.

The joy, the tears, the heartache, the love.

Nothing much had changed, same old same old.

I miss those days when I still had friends that I can reach out to.

Been doing things alone pretty much all the time.

I hate loneliness, yet it feels like I can't quite avoid loneliness.

But there are still good things about this life that I'm living right now.

You just need to be patient and discover yourself.

Till then, alright?

Just because I have to say this.

Things happen, regardless they are good or bad. They will just keep coming, and coming.
It comes to a point, when it's too much for you to handle yourself, physically and mentally.


There are just too many things on my mind.
Studies, personal problems, blah blah blah that are playing with my mind.
Now even cigarettes will help much.
Quit it, and now it's back. Again.


We can't please everyone, that's for sure, and surely we expect people to do what we want.
What lies inside, is what you would never know. What I never said before, was what you would never listen.
They all are kept inside, within me, away from you.


Whatever that is mine, I won't let anyone to put a finger on it.
Say I'm selfish maybe, or say I'm mean.
But I won't do the same in return.
Just because, I can't.
Say I'm mean. Say I'm selfish.


Accept me whole, or just leave me.
And if I can't accept you whole, I might, as well, leave.


Hi sadness, it's been a long while. :)


And thank you too, to those who are there to give their support along the way.
At least, they listen when nobody else would.
Perhaps, that's what friends are for.
I had never spoken about this to anyone before, but it just became too unbearable.
They are always there to care. For that, I thank you. Sincerely.


Oh well, surely I did some mistakes.
Small and big.
And the blame should be on me too.


Trust is not created in a single day.
Trust is also not created by repeating the same words over and over again.
Trust is built with actions, my friend. Not just your words.
They are just not enough. They are just not enough.


But at the same time, I wouldn't anticipate more.
The more I try not to care, I more I do.
Well, perhaps it's time. To let go and move on.
Or perhaps, I'm just running in a circle.


I couldn't give you my words, that I would forget everything.
Just because I can't.


Time heals everything, but give time some time to do its work.
Being mad, or being sad, won't help much.
Hatred? Yes, it existed only at the beginning.
But hating somebody is just a waste of time.
Stupid, silly. Whatever you call it.


You can move on with your life, and surely I can do better.
For that, I can give you my words as there is nothing to salvage.

Remember the past, but live in the present. :)