Sunday, October 30, 2011

The Awkward Moment.


Then, "Hahahaha" was all we heard from each other.

After so many years, so many days, we finally managed to make a call, and hear each other's voice for the very first time. Well, perhaps she was sleepy that time, so we didn't really talk much on the phone and the awkwardness was just overwhelming. haha. Maklumlah, tak pernah call pun kita due ne. haha :))
We didn't talk much. In fact, we were in silence most of the time while we were on the phone. But everything has it's first time right, perhaps we will talk more next time. hehe. But still, I'm confused whether to talk to her in bm or english. Last2, bm bi kasi campur je. haha. xD

Anyway, there it goes, that was my first time that I actually heard her voice. Her voice, makes everything better, in any way.
I love her more than I can tell her on the phone, thanks to the awkwardness. haha.
Perhaps I will say it again next time, I will tell that to you everyday, everytime when we are on the phone.

Yun, if you could read this, remember that I'll always love you, I'm always your grandpa jem, and you are always my ikan yu. :')

Thursday, October 27, 2011

What to do.

Seriously, I don't know what to do about this, about us.
Deep inside, I love you more than I can imagine ; on the outside, I just don't want to see you to be in this mess no more.
Hard times, yes, they will always be there. To challenge you, to test you. But I just don't want to see you, and your friends end up like this, because of me.
I know it would hurt you a lot if I let you go, because you are trying so hard right now, I can see that.
But is it worth trying for, yun? Am I worth loving?
Even myself can't give you my answers.
I don't know if we could last forever, but I've promised you that I will never leave, and I will always keep my promise.
Perhaps being just friends would be the best for us, who knows. Even though I want us to be more than friends, I want to be together all the time, but as long as they 'tak doakan hubungan ini', we will never be happy. Neither will you, nor me.
It's silly to think about others or what they say, since this relationship is ours, but they really do have their points there. Yes, muslim and non-muslim, together we will be facing many challenges - from friends and family, and most importantly, from Him.
I don't know since when I started to have my faith in You, but I really hope that You would give us the strength to go through everything.
Or perhaps you could end this, and let us just be friends again.

Nevertheless, I don't want us to be strangers, I never want that to happen.
We started off this as friends, and I always want you to be my best friend.
Am I the one for you? It doesn't really matter.
He will definitely give you the man who deserves you.
But I want you, I need you. It'd be such a waste to lose someone like you, as a lover and a great friend.
One day, if we happen to be apart..
I hope you would still tell me everything about you, share everything with me.
Don't ever take me as I've never existed in your life, as my heart is always yours.
Love me or love me not, I need you yun.

We are muslim and non-muslim, chinese and malay.
We started off this as a young girl and a young man, to a woman and a man.

I sincerely wish for the best for both of us.

Problems that bug you and me, perhaps there will be solutions for that. InsyaAllah.
And special thanks to Iman, for being supportive all the time, and also those who have been thoughtful.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

The Right Path.

Today is a special day for all the indians and hereby I wish Happy Deepavali, and a happy holiday to all people across the country. ^^
A new year, a new beginning. Hope everything would be okay after this. Everything happens for a reason, and it's destined to happen. Give yourself to God and he shall lead you to the right path

Well, talking about the right path..I really hope we could make it through whatever, miss n.u.r. Together.
My heart is always with you, no matter how bad this could be. We started this as friends, and I really do hope we could end up as friends too, IF something bad happens and we have to let each other go. Well, if that is the best for both of us, why not kan? I just want you to be happy, and cheerful. That's all I need to see.

I love you. Ich Liebe Dich N.U.R
And no one could ever change that. :)

Hopefully one day, we could be like them.