Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I miss that.

I miss this moment so badly.
I wish I could go back to the time when we were so happy..

Oh my, let's do it again, shall we? xD

But I can't quite remember what we actually doodled.
We doodled so many things, so many words.
Korean especially.
I can't remember how to write all the words that you had taught me,
none of them.
But the moment will be forever cherished in my heart.
After all, I have never chatted with someone from night till dawn.
Just this special girl. :')


Somewhere around this time,
back in the year 2008..
The moment when we were having non-stop conversation,
we knew nothing about tiredness.

We talked a lot.
From our dreams, to our lives.
The best damn thing was,
we were comfortable with each other.
Everything was great,
the conversation was good,
the doodle we made was surely a sweet thing to be remembered.

I just miss every single moment that we used to spend.
It's special to me.
I love that moment, and I cherish that all the time,
time passed, some things change,
but that will never take those memories off my mind.

Now here I have her,
together with me,
after all these years.

Yes, things happen something.
Good..and bad.
Sometimes, we just have to hold on to what we have and what we used to have in the past.
That special feeling never fades away.

Many things have in between these years,
ever since we graduated.
Tere are just too many of them, until we can't tell it one by one.

Well, I haven't even met her,
and I haven't even talked to her before, well, face to face.
I want to meet her one day.
Perhaps, one day, I really will.

Good night love. :)

Monday, November 28, 2011

Stormy Day

Hanya Kau Yang Mampu - Aizat

'' Cerita tentang masa lalu 
Cerita tentang kau dan aku 
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan 
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi 
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati 
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir 
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku ''

I don't want to make the wrong choice and regret for what I have chosen. I never want that to happen to any one of us. At least we could give it a try right now while we still have the chance, until we both are willing to give up. Neither of us would feel any better if we let it go just like that, and forever it will be a regret if we don't try to make it through what we are facing now.

And about people, we will try to forget about them, FA, SZ , IZ or whosoever. Just hopefully there will be nobody else, just you and me.
I'm sorry for the jealousy, and I'm sorry for being to possessive. You might not like that, but I'm trying. Have a little faith in me, I'm trying.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

What We Need

Sometimes it's actually good to know that someone cares about us.
Untung la kan kalau ade jugak orang yg sayang kat kita ne. :)
Okay, enough said, I'm jealous. haha.
But I can expect myself to know everything too.
And I don't expect you to tell me everything.

After all,
there are always secrets that lie in out hearts.
I respect that. :)

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Where The Hearts First Met.

Talking about this.
Thanks to one place,
where everything could fall at the right place for the first time..

-Yahoo Instant Messenger.

Well, we knew each other on Myspace,
in end of the year 2008.
At first, we were not close at all.
Tak tegur pun, sombong. hahaha.

But then, until now, both of us still don't know how we could end up chatting,
chatting on YIM.
We just chatted, almost every night.
From night till dawn, we chatted non-stop.
We actually had a lot of things in common, and we still have some things in common now.
Well, let's not go detailed on that.

Everything were good.
But in the year 2009,
I just didn't head from her anymore, as if she went disappeared.
Soon, a year had passed, and it was 2010.
You know, sometimes I actually signed in YIM,
just to see if you were there and I left you words so that you could read it when you are back online.
Who knows right, if you would. haha.


Then, just out of nowhere,
she's back, with her words " Good night handsome. xD ".

And things went on after that,
we are together.
And nothing could feel better than this, after all these years. :')

N. Uyuun Rahimi.

My Friend.

Okay, first of all, the story that I'm going to tell,
is about the random conversation that I had with my friend.

I asked for her opinion about my new blog layout,
and then suddenly she said : " Eh, jiwang. "
I was like, oh my. haha. xD

Talking about her,

she is my bestie.
We have gone through many thing together kot.
We knew each other when both of us were dating our ex's.

Then days after days, me and my ex broke up,
and soon after that she and her ex broke up too.
When her ex broke up with her,
she was sad.
And then, by any means to give her some spirit,
we decided to have a day out together,
Why did I do that?
Maybe we were facing the same issue kot, that's all.
No other intention. :)

that any means cost me like a huge fortune kot.
HUGE, tahu tak? haha. :))

What we did that day?
Basically, we went for movie. 2 movies.

Piranha, and Cats & Dogs.
Haha, bila da on spending spree, air mengalir macam air. HAHA.
I don't even remember where I spent my money.
All I could remember were those 2 movies. >,<

And then time went on. :)
We are still besties kannnnn, mira?

Hahaha xD

Random Entry

'' You jahat kalau you tinggal i. ''

Haha, suddenly I remember this text from her.
Well, that's promise that I have to keep, all the time.

You are always close to me and my heart. :')

More Than Just Words

You said that you are not good enough for me to stay,
You are afraid that one day I will be leaving you for someone better.

I'd never leave,
just because I don't care even if you are not good enough,
you'd always be the best that I could possibly have.
As myself is not a good person, what can I ask more from someone good like you.
If you are reading this,
I want you to know that
you are always the best.

-Once a promise, always a promise, right?- :')

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Overtaken by Stupidity.

Mak ei, masih boleh rase jealous tu kenape? haha. Tak faham betul.
Anyway, I envy the way you guys were.
I know I'm somewhat childish, tak matang.
haha. Bear with that alright.

But, it's normal la, I think,
I bet you'd feel the same too if you were me.
Although I'm jealous, that was the past,
so there is nothing to be worried about.

If there's no faith, how could there be love, right? :)

Monday, November 21, 2011

The Heart Says It All.

Well, sometimes I can be unpredictable,
I get mad over small matters,
feel sad for no reasons.

Yeah, really, that's me. The Unpredictable Jenyew. haha xD
Thank you so, so much for being so patient with me.
I really mean it, and I appreciate everything that you have done for me, and for us.

I could be a mean jerk sometimes,
but I just want you to know,
no matter how I could be,
I'll always, always love you.

We might not have much time together,
and although sometimes I have doubts and get upset about that,
as long as we both know where out hearts are,
then everything will always be just fine. :')

It has nothing to do with the miles that keep us apart, it's all about the hearts that feel exactly the same.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I Won't Let You Go - J. Morrison

When it's black,Take a little time to hold yourself,Take a little time to feel around,Before it's gone,
You won't let go,But you still keep on falling down,Remember how you saved me now,From all of my wrongs yeah,
If there's love just feel it,If there's life we'll see it,This is no time to be alone, alone, yeah,I, wont let you go,
Say those words,Say those words like there's nothing else,Close your eyes and you might believe,That there is some way out yeah,
Open up,Open up your heart to me now,Let it all come pouring out,Theres nothing I can't take,
If there's love just feel it,And if there's life we'll see it,This ain't no time to be alone, alone, yeahI, wont let you go,
If your sky is falling,Just take my hand and hold it,You don't have to be alone, alone, yeah,I, won't let you go,
And if you feel the fading of the light,And you're too weak to carry on the fight,And all your friends that you count on have disappeared,I'll be here, not gone, forever, holding on, Oh,
If there's love just feel it,And if there's life we'll see it,This ain't no time to be alone, alone, yeah,I, wont let you go,
If your sky is falling,Just take my hand and hold it,You don't have to be alone, alone, yeah,I won't let you go,
I wont let you go, I wont let, x 2,I won't let you go x 2,

If you are reading this, you know exactly how I feel towards you.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

This Ain't Above Lovey Dovey

When I read back some of my previous entries,
I noticed that I really grew up a lot.

When I was reading those entries, I just couldn't stop smiling.
How immature, how silly and how funny I was. Hahaha.
Well, time passes and people grow up everyday.
Life is basically a learning process, a lesson.
You live your life everyday, and you learn something new everyday, meet new people, and make mistakes, most of the time.
That's life.

I could say that I grew up a lot,
from a young little boy, to a going-to-be man.
But still, it's a long way to go, and there is plenty of lesson for me to learn.
One day, I'm going to be a man. A reliable one.

Cheers! :)

Thank you and thank you.

This entry is specially dedicated to one person.

After talking to Haziyah, I actually learned a lot.
About all the issues that me and her are having right now, and all the reasons why.

Actually, I'm still struggling between choices,
not sure which way would be the best for both of us.
But it's okay, if what we are doing now is wrong, He will always show us, and lead us to the right path.

The path we have taken may be uncertain, but we made our own choice, didn't we? :)

Hopefully, it would be the right path.

Things changed ever since

Well, the changes weren't that much.
But still, something has changed. Something is..different now.

Is it good or is it bad?
Nobody knows how this will go.

Even if it's coming to an end, let's just hope it would end nicely.

Monday, November 14, 2011

What To Do.

Well, everything is over now.
She wants to be just friends, after months we had been together.

Why couldn't you tell me earlier if you just want to be friends?
At least I could prepare myself for that.
You once said you would hold on to me, and go through everything with me,
and now you just want to be friends.
What does that suppose to mean?

I hate you.
Seriously, I do.
I hate you not because of having me fooled.
But I hate you because I loved you so much, that I once thought we could be together a bit longer.

Now everything is not the same anymore,
you are not mine,
everything that we had before, is completely wiped out.
It wasn't easy to build all these, and you had everything destroyed now.

What should I do,
I don't know.
Try to cheer you up? I would give it a try.
To wait for you until we could become lovers again? Only God knows that.

No matter what, you are the girl that I once loved.

Saturday, November 12, 2011


Maybe you just have to tell me..

when I'm no longer important to you.

Maybe you just have to tell me..

when you don't feel the same anymore.

Maybe you just have to tell me..

when your heart is no longer mine.

Maybe you just have to tell me..

when you don't need me anymore.

If one day, you leave,
please leave with a good-bye. At least I would know that it's all over now.
Don't ever leave without saying good bye and leave everything hanging, uncertain.

Or maybe you just have to convince me that you still love me,
so that I could always feel you.