Thursday, May 24, 2012

Just because I have to say this.

Things happen, regardless they are good or bad. They will just keep coming, and coming.
It comes to a point, when it's too much for you to handle yourself, physically and mentally.

There are just too many things on my mind.
Studies, personal problems, blah blah blah that are playing with my mind.
Now even cigarettes will help much.
Quit it, and now it's back. Again.

We can't please everyone, that's for sure, and surely we expect people to do what we want.
What lies inside, is what you would never know. What I never said before, was what you would never listen.
They all are kept inside, within me, away from you.

Whatever that is mine, I won't let anyone to put a finger on it.
Say I'm selfish maybe, or say I'm mean.
But I won't do the same in return.
Just because, I can't.
Say I'm mean. Say I'm selfish.

Accept me whole, or just leave me.
And if I can't accept you whole, I might, as well, leave.

Hi sadness, it's been a long while. :)

And thank you too, to those who are there to give their support along the way.
At least, they listen when nobody else would.
Perhaps, that's what friends are for.
I had never spoken about this to anyone before, but it just became too unbearable.
They are always there to care. For that, I thank you. Sincerely.

Oh well, surely I did some mistakes.
Small and big.
And the blame should be on me too.

Trust is not created in a single day.
Trust is also not created by repeating the same words over and over again.
Trust is built with actions, my friend. Not just your words.
They are just not enough. They are just not enough.

But at the same time, I wouldn't anticipate more.
The more I try not to care, I more I do.
Well, perhaps it's time. To let go and move on.
Or perhaps, I'm just running in a circle.

I couldn't give you my words, that I would forget everything.
Just because I can't.

Time heals everything, but give time some time to do its work.
Being mad, or being sad, won't help much.
Hatred? Yes, it existed only at the beginning.
But hating somebody is just a waste of time.
Stupid, silly. Whatever you call it.

You can move on with your life, and surely I can do better.
For that, I can give you my words as there is nothing to salvage.

Remember the past, but live in the present. :)

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